I really need to update my blog more often. I guess I’ve been going through a lot lately and have been making the excuse that this has been getting in the way of my writing. Although I really have been going through a lot, I know I have to make more of an effort to make posts here since it will most likely help me deal with things better – in terms of venting and getting things off my chest.
I guess another reason I’ve been neglecting my blog is that although I love to speak my mind and share my thoughts I have this nagging feeling that maybe no one’s really interested or they’re making judgements about me. Well, I’ve been thinking lately… Who cares! Lol.
This blog is here for me to vent, share my life and hopefully encourage others who are going through similar issues and challenges. It’s up to me if I want to post something or not and I really shouldn’t care if anyone thinks negatively of my posts. I don’t know what was making me feel this way since no one has posted nasty comments or anything! I guess I’ve just been feeling discouraged with things overall and looking for negative things when they’re not really there. I mean there are negative and difficult things that have been going on in my life but I shouldn’t let that keep me from doing things proactively to make myself happy. This blog makes me happy and I need to continue to write what’s on my mind – so I will!
So yeah like I said there’s been a lot going on but I’m trying to stay positive.
In the past I’ve had a lot of issues with anxiety and depression – I thought I was doing ok these past few years but the dark thoughts have been gradually creeping back in and becoming too much. I tried to ignore it but everything just kept building up within. Honestly I think it’s time to go back to the doctor and see if I can get some help. Yes- there I said it. I need help. There’s nothing wrong with that and it’s good that I’m being honest about it.
This blog is about my struggles with weight loss but there are so many factors outside of eating too much or eating the wrong things that can affect progress. When your mind isn’t in the right place it makes reaching those weight loss goals that much more difficult.
I’m hoping that once I get my inner workings all in order that everything else will fall into place. It will take some time but I’m trying to stay positive. In coming posts I plan on being more open, candid and honest about my life like I originally planned to and hope that someone out there in the interwebs will be able to relate!